well, i am not sure what it says. it sure has been illuminating. i just know i don't want to leave my sweet sweet nothing behind. i just want my nothing to continue into eternity. people ask me what i do all day, and i sit there and think, and the longer i think, the less of an answer i end up with. because really, anyone who knows me knows the truth. if you are in my presence and asking that question, whatever it is we are doing is the most substantial thing i have done that day. it is almost amusing to me trying to answer, because the truth is beautiful to me. sweet wonderful nothing. long stretches of it, time completely unaccounted for. it makes me think to myself, 'what did i do?' can i even remember ANYTHING from the past 24 hours?

but anyways, i have achieved that wonderful zen-like state of pure apathy. it isn't really so much i don't care, i just don't have anything to care about. so apathy is really kind of a side effect.

here, i got sidetracked in the middle of this. i haven't typed anything in 38 min. that is pretty telling. i lost interest in my wandering description of nothing. ahhhhh yeah

frivved up by Ben at 10:30 PM