Tuesday, May 28, 2002
damn, that weekend went by way too fast.
well, i woke up too early. i'm supposed to be at a work party at 9. i really don't want to go, but i have too. god damn, i hate these things. i think its going to be kids again. i really don't like working with kids. i feel out of place.
i put all my computer together over the weekend. it took a while, but everything seems to be in fine working order. it took a little doing, installing the right things and such, but now it all seems to be up and running. it was a funny experience. picture me and tripat huddled over the motherboard with a butter knife and a fork trying to snap the heatsink/fan combo over the processor. the hilarity, it was great. but we got it on, and i got everything together. i had to order a new sound card, because the onboard 5.1 digital certified sound wasn't really onboard like i assumed it would be, it was another card you had to plug in. only problem, it didn't actually fit on the motherboard. so yeah, whatever... minor annoyance.
aaarrrrrrrrrrg, brain so fuzzy. i don't know how i function at all on so little sleep, all the time.
well, i woke up too early. i'm supposed to be at a work party at 9. i really don't want to go, but i have too. god damn, i hate these things. i think its going to be kids again. i really don't like working with kids. i feel out of place.
i put all my computer together over the weekend. it took a while, but everything seems to be in fine working order. it took a little doing, installing the right things and such, but now it all seems to be up and running. it was a funny experience. picture me and tripat huddled over the motherboard with a butter knife and a fork trying to snap the heatsink/fan combo over the processor. the hilarity, it was great. but we got it on, and i got everything together. i had to order a new sound card, because the onboard 5.1 digital certified sound wasn't really onboard like i assumed it would be, it was another card you had to plug in. only problem, it didn't actually fit on the motherboard. so yeah, whatever... minor annoyance.
aaarrrrrrrrrrg, brain so fuzzy. i don't know how i function at all on so little sleep, all the time.
Friday, May 24, 2002
oh happy day...
all my computer stuff is at my house. now i just have to put it all together. yeee dawgie.
all my stuff i needed to do at work (at this juncture) is done. weeeee
3 day weekend. ohhhh baby.....
one happy wank
all my computer stuff is at my house. now i just have to put it all together. yeee dawgie.
all my stuff i needed to do at work (at this juncture) is done. weeeee
3 day weekend. ohhhh baby.....
one happy wank
Thursday, May 23, 2002
for anyone who has not seen this. you need to look, like now. greatest thing EVER, EVERRRRRR
http://www.digitalsynoptic.com/starwars.wmv
ever.......
http://www.digitalsynoptic.com/starwars.wmv
ever.......
lol, for some reason i feel the need to blog...
it is strange when people find your blog, in particular people you have blogged about. i mean, it was scary when my old coworker found it, and emailed me about it because i had probably mentioned her a few times. honestly i don't remember what i put down a month later. thats why i love my archives so much :) anyways, i got an email from Ali about her finding my blog. i think that is pretty damn funny, because she read the parts where i bitched about her and apologized. i don't even remeber what i wrote, but it couldn't have been pleasant. its just like, damn i'm glad she didn't find it back when i was writing it, because she probably would have hired assassins or something to kill me for calling for the wrath of hell and what not to fall upon her and her family. i'm kind of interested to see what i wrote
ok minor aside, but this is just too cracked out. they are playing naked tennis on blind date. wtf, old nasty people playing tennis naked. GAH. there goes all shreds of rational thought, right out the window.
fuck work, too busy, no chance to blog. i know work and busy shouldn't go in the same sentance, but sometimes they just do....
in other good news, yesterday i got some of my computer parts.... i got one package. i have had 4 other packages delivered that they didn't leave. FOUR. jesus thats a lot of package goodness. i don't know where i am going to put all this shit in my room while i'm building it, seeing as i have my entire wardrobe on my floor dirty, and tons of trash gathering around it. on the pile it all goes
who knows, maybe today i will get off my lazy ass and whip out a real blog... stranger things have happened
it is strange when people find your blog, in particular people you have blogged about. i mean, it was scary when my old coworker found it, and emailed me about it because i had probably mentioned her a few times. honestly i don't remember what i put down a month later. thats why i love my archives so much :) anyways, i got an email from Ali about her finding my blog. i think that is pretty damn funny, because she read the parts where i bitched about her and apologized. i don't even remeber what i wrote, but it couldn't have been pleasant. its just like, damn i'm glad she didn't find it back when i was writing it, because she probably would have hired assassins or something to kill me for calling for the wrath of hell and what not to fall upon her and her family. i'm kind of interested to see what i wrote
ok minor aside, but this is just too cracked out. they are playing naked tennis on blind date. wtf, old nasty people playing tennis naked. GAH. there goes all shreds of rational thought, right out the window.
fuck work, too busy, no chance to blog. i know work and busy shouldn't go in the same sentance, but sometimes they just do....
in other good news, yesterday i got some of my computer parts.... i got one package. i have had 4 other packages delivered that they didn't leave. FOUR. jesus thats a lot of package goodness. i don't know where i am going to put all this shit in my room while i'm building it, seeing as i have my entire wardrobe on my floor dirty, and tons of trash gathering around it. on the pile it all goes
who knows, maybe today i will get off my lazy ass and whip out a real blog... stranger things have happened
Monday, May 20, 2002
here's the deal. i've been playing this game called dark age of camelot pretty much non stop. thus, no blogs. no time. MUST LEVEL, GOTTA CATCH EM ALL, ALBIONS!!!
Pokechanter, I CHOOSE YOU
so, i wish i had 7 boobs, like 2 real ones, and then the rest there out of sight to promote perkiness and reduce sagging, yeah....
Pokechanter, I CHOOSE YOU
so, i wish i had 7 boobs, like 2 real ones, and then the rest there out of sight to promote perkiness and reduce sagging, yeah....
Friday, May 10, 2002
blog monster blog monster, stop eating blogs... i swear the big bad blog monster ate 3 good blogs yesterday... pretty annoying, i mean, i kind of broke out of this blogging funk and wrote stuff that i actually thought was good and expressed my feelings to myself and yadda yadda yadda, then bloop..... GONE NOOOOOOO. nothing worse than that. well, ok, there are, but not when you are blogging.
so yes, what is up in the world of the wank. i guess the main thing on my mind is this computer i'm about to build. i mean, its kind of surreal that its actually going to happen. how long have i been wanting a new computer? like, 2 years? well, i think in about a week or so its actually going to happen. which is cool. i'm going to build it myself, which scares all sorts of living craps out of me. i mean, after saving up all this time, i'm trusting myself to build something this expensive correctly? jeez, i'm a wanker, and if i screw up, i don't have anyone else to blame. ahh well, i guess being apprehensive is better, it will make me be careful. i always have dan just down the road, and he knows his shit. so it will be good. i'm actually really really excited, cause this computer is sucking right now.
in one of my blogs yesterday that got eaten mysteriously, i was going on about how screwed up time was. i mean, its supposed to be universal, like, a second is a second, an hour is an hour. it just doesn't seem that way!! i mean, god!! an hour at work goes by sooooo much slower than an hour at home... i dunno, i guess because of this, it is kind of annoying that things that i don't want to do at home have to take up time at all. i mean, thats more time that i could be sitting on my ass doing nothing at all. but no, instead i have to take all this time to eat, and take a shower, etc etc. i mean, its not that i don't like these things, i just shouldn't have to take time to do them.
anyways, i really have to get back to my plans for the night. more on showers later. ohhhhhh boy, will there be more on showers later....
so yes, what is up in the world of the wank. i guess the main thing on my mind is this computer i'm about to build. i mean, its kind of surreal that its actually going to happen. how long have i been wanting a new computer? like, 2 years? well, i think in about a week or so its actually going to happen. which is cool. i'm going to build it myself, which scares all sorts of living craps out of me. i mean, after saving up all this time, i'm trusting myself to build something this expensive correctly? jeez, i'm a wanker, and if i screw up, i don't have anyone else to blame. ahh well, i guess being apprehensive is better, it will make me be careful. i always have dan just down the road, and he knows his shit. so it will be good. i'm actually really really excited, cause this computer is sucking right now.
in one of my blogs yesterday that got eaten mysteriously, i was going on about how screwed up time was. i mean, its supposed to be universal, like, a second is a second, an hour is an hour. it just doesn't seem that way!! i mean, god!! an hour at work goes by sooooo much slower than an hour at home... i dunno, i guess because of this, it is kind of annoying that things that i don't want to do at home have to take up time at all. i mean, thats more time that i could be sitting on my ass doing nothing at all. but no, instead i have to take all this time to eat, and take a shower, etc etc. i mean, its not that i don't like these things, i just shouldn't have to take time to do them.
anyways, i really have to get back to my plans for the night. more on showers later. ohhhhhh boy, will there be more on showers later....
Wednesday, May 08, 2002
traffic will always remain a mystery to me
the fact that i can leave for work later, and get there earlier when i do on a regular basis is baffling. i mean, think about it. shouldn't the later traffic just be a few minutes behind, but stuck in the same traffic? its not like i am passing hoardes of cars or anything. i dont' get it
the weeds i have been pulling have been fighting back... there is this weed called shotweed that we have been pulling out. its some kind of little bittercress, i don't know much about it. what it does, is like, shoot its seeds. its like every seed head is a little gun. so trying to weed it, you grab it, and then you get sprayed with seeds in your mouth, nose and eyes. it is really annoying. one thing that was really funny today though, i wanted to see if i could pull one without letting it drop any seed, so i was all careful. then i put it in my bucket, and all the seeds went off and jumped out of the bucket. i thought that was pretty funny. outsmarted by a plant, i rule...
the fact that i can leave for work later, and get there earlier when i do on a regular basis is baffling. i mean, think about it. shouldn't the later traffic just be a few minutes behind, but stuck in the same traffic? its not like i am passing hoardes of cars or anything. i dont' get it
the weeds i have been pulling have been fighting back... there is this weed called shotweed that we have been pulling out. its some kind of little bittercress, i don't know much about it. what it does, is like, shoot its seeds. its like every seed head is a little gun. so trying to weed it, you grab it, and then you get sprayed with seeds in your mouth, nose and eyes. it is really annoying. one thing that was really funny today though, i wanted to see if i could pull one without letting it drop any seed, so i was all careful. then i put it in my bucket, and all the seeds went off and jumped out of the bucket. i thought that was pretty funny. outsmarted by a plant, i rule...
Tuesday, May 07, 2002
i have been having serious concentration issues lately. i can't keep my mind focused at all, let alone long enough to sit at a computer and write.
but yeah, anyways....
things are going fairly well.... work is work, and i just realized that another weekend has passed, and i'm already back working again. it doesn't seem like weekends exist at all, they seem to be more like an afternoon attached to friday. me and my sense of time have been having issues as well lately.
sometimes i wish i could find something consistant about myself. it seems like i am always in a state of internal redefinition. but really, i never change. it just seems like i do... in reality i am searching for a break in this consistancy. i wish i could change, so i am constantly trying to redefine myself. really, there ends up being no redefinition... even this search for definition is consistant... blah... what i all boils down too, is that i am bored. i am bored of myself. i am bored of pretty much everything. i get bored of anything in a few minutes. i think this is going to turn into one of my biggest disadvantages in life. this will be the most challenging thing to overcome. i can never find anything that can hold my concentration long enough to break out of this bored streak. everything i try turns into a waste. i can think of a thousand and one things i have bought, or tried, etc, in hopes that they would be the exception to this rule. none of them have. the thing that has held my interest the longest, like, well, ever is a video game, and even that has been off and on.
everything becomes a chore to me. when things i am supposed to like become a chore, everything else seems that much worse...
the weird thing is, i find a strange sense of comfort in this boredom. i am happy in this bored, lazy state i have built for myself, at least at the moment. there are probably things i could do to make things less of a chore, but i don't really want too. its strange sometimes...
short attention span kicking in in :
5....4.... blah, you know the rest, count yourself
but yeah, anyways....
things are going fairly well.... work is work, and i just realized that another weekend has passed, and i'm already back working again. it doesn't seem like weekends exist at all, they seem to be more like an afternoon attached to friday. me and my sense of time have been having issues as well lately.
sometimes i wish i could find something consistant about myself. it seems like i am always in a state of internal redefinition. but really, i never change. it just seems like i do... in reality i am searching for a break in this consistancy. i wish i could change, so i am constantly trying to redefine myself. really, there ends up being no redefinition... even this search for definition is consistant... blah... what i all boils down too, is that i am bored. i am bored of myself. i am bored of pretty much everything. i get bored of anything in a few minutes. i think this is going to turn into one of my biggest disadvantages in life. this will be the most challenging thing to overcome. i can never find anything that can hold my concentration long enough to break out of this bored streak. everything i try turns into a waste. i can think of a thousand and one things i have bought, or tried, etc, in hopes that they would be the exception to this rule. none of them have. the thing that has held my interest the longest, like, well, ever is a video game, and even that has been off and on.
everything becomes a chore to me. when things i am supposed to like become a chore, everything else seems that much worse...
the weird thing is, i find a strange sense of comfort in this boredom. i am happy in this bored, lazy state i have built for myself, at least at the moment. there are probably things i could do to make things less of a chore, but i don't really want too. its strange sometimes...
short attention span kicking in in :
5....4.... blah, you know the rest, count yourself
