alright short blog. i have the only key, lol. only me and air are moving in tomorrow, but i feel somewhat self conscious being the only one with the key to the new house......

Alright, i am going to be logging off for a few days, no bloggage :( so i will leave you with this last CD of the day, it is a good one. you know, if i don't end up logging on somehow, this will be the first time i have missed a day since i started. anyways, Jimmie's Chicken Shack - Bring Your Own Stereo is the CD that will have to tide you over, woo hoo.

Moving in tomorrow and Saturday, spankin good time

frivved up by Ben at 10:49 PM

i need to stop bitching so much. it is something i do, especially when i am nervous, our anxious. i am nervous, and anxious, so i have been complaining.... a lot. It has to be annoying. hell, i annoy myself. thanks for putting up for me ;) those of who reading my blog too, even though you can just ignore it. if i am sitting in the same room just whining, it is harder to ignore me. lol, i am worked up. this is a huge step in my life, moving out, and into a house where i have to pay rent, food, etc. etc. big big big, of course i am going to be nervous. give me a week or so, i will be back to normal. booyah

frivved up by Ben at 11:01 PM

so yeah, what to say about today. work was kind of crazy, just because i didn't do the usual things i do in the afternoon. we went out to this huge construction site in redmond of all places, and got some logs and "forest duff." yes, i was harvesting duff today at work. woo hoo. then i picked up my cashiers check for tomorrow, yeeeeee HAW. then it took me an hour and half to get home, fun....

so yeah, listening too the radio today. i must say, the more i hear the new weezer song, island in the sun, the more i like it. it really is going to be "the feel good hit of the summer" like the end dudes are billing it. oh yeah, and i really don't like the new STP song. what the fuck. i miss the old days of stp with sex like thing or whatever it was, and interstate love song, things where they actually had guitar, and the singing was still cool. sour girl was kind of cool, because it was different, but now that new song is just stupid. fuck em.

CD of the day is Paul Oakenfold - Transport. such a chill cd, i love it. one of my favorites.

oh yeah, and did i tell you the house is officially ours tomorrow? ;) yeah, we get our keys. i am moving shit in on friday after work. i am going to take two boxes tomorrow when we get our keys and put them in that room, in case jay tries to skank it somehow. i will be like, "whassup sucka foo!" and then funny music will come on, and we will have a kung fu fight scene. that is EXACTLY how it is going to happen, i know it. anyone who wants to watch, i am selling tickets... lol, i need food and sleep......

frivved up by Ben at 6:17 PM

i don't know why i am worrying about this house thing. I would like to hear Jay's reasoning too. right now, he can't give me a good reason besides "well, i have a lot of stuff:" fuck, we all have a lot of stuff. fuck that, makes no sense. BAH. i really hope the rest of the house doesn't have to get involved in this. I hope it can be resolved without resorting to that. I just fear that it won't, and that I will have to ask Trav and Air their opinions, which really isn't fair to them. it is not something i want to do. They shouldn't be pulled into this. I just am afraid it will come to that, which is just stupid. BAH. this shouldn't even be an issue. the fact that it is turning into an issue is annoying. I just feel petty and jerkish, but sometimes you have to stoop to other people's levels to get what you want, lol ;)

I know what trav means about feeling like a jerk. it sucks, i hate that feeling. i can't stand the feeling that someone might be unhappy of me, and more importantly that someone may disapprove of me. Deep seated, long lasting self esteem problems, woo hoo :P But it really blows to be walked all over. I guess i can put up with a little disapproval to protect my ass a little bit from this constant battering most people call life. I really shouldn't care about what people think of me. i don't care about what most people think of me. I just really care about how the people who are really close to me feel about me. but then i realize i probably lose even more respect by just folding all the time.

I have been thinking about these blogs. i go back and read them, and realize how angry, or stupid, or simpy i must sound sometimes. this page is an extension of my raw emotions. I would never come right out and start yelling about traffic and swearing and shit like i do. i would never wander around in a love struck daze like my blogs from a few weeks ago suggested. this blog is just what i am feeling at that exact time, with all the restrictions we normally put on our emotional expression removed. I am not really an angry person, but i do get angry. and when i do, it is good to put it down somewhere, so i do.

CD of the day time. i know you are all just thrilled ;) i can see you all at your computers making mocking masterbatorial gestures and wondering "who the fuck cares anymore." well i do, so ha!!! matt was right, these cds kind of sum up what i am feeling for this day. of course, i have different reactions to the same cd depending on what mood i am in, so that actually doesn't mean anything, lol. but yeah, music helps me. I would not say i am as hardcore as matt, but music has an influence on my life. i feel i have been missing something since i lost my internet connection/mp3 source. it will be good to have it back. CD of the day is Ben Folds Five - Whatever & Ever Amen. first track on this cd (one angry dwarf) is one of my all time favorite songs. those of you who have just heard Brick, and think you don't like Ben Folds Five, go download this album and tell me you don't like them. Ben Folds is a genious. There are only 3 of them, but they have such an incredible sound. I can't believe i waited this long to put this as CD of the day. I LOVE this cd. oh yeah, and they are just as sweet in concert :D

frivved up by Ben at 12:45 PM

blogging is good. I enjoy it. it may be for myself, but it is kind of cool to know people read it, even if they do only take a few minutes out of their day to do it. ahh well, i enjoy your blogs, and i know mine helps me, so yeah

small dogs, where to begin. I don't really like small dogs. i don't really hate them, i just don't really like most of them. pretty much every small dog i have met has been a jumpy, hyper little cracked out beasty. Cats on the otherhand are usually pretty mild mannered. little dogs tend to bark their heads off, while cats maybe meow once in a while. small dogs usually have that wierd stringy curley hair that creeps me out, cats generally have softer, shorter hair. all dogs smell, but small dogs always seem to smell more to me, unlike cats who clean themselves constantly so don't really smell bad. so if i had to choose between having a jumpy little barking hyper smelly freak with stringy hair jumping on me, or a soft mild mannered quiet clean cat jumping on me............ nothing beats a regular sized dog though. dogs rule, no matter what, i just don't really like smaller dogs is all. it is fine if they are someone elses, i love em, but if it was mine, it would really get on my nerves, you know?

alright, so, CD of the day is going to have to be Dj Tiesto - Summerbreeze. I love that album, and i realized i have basically no techno in my cd of the day list. go listen the the first 4 or so songs on that cd, bad fucking ass. then later in the cd, about track 8 and 9 i think, he throws in some Allure and some Delerium feat. Sarah McLaughlin. basically, an all around goooood CD.

I look forward to thursday at 2:30, and getting my keys and getting the lease signed, and having the house be officially ours :D then i have a midterm after that, poop. oh well, it will be a good week.

And that room is mine. if this EVEN turns into a problem, i am going to be pretty pissed. I have spent the last 6 months getting shit on by various people and organizations. In the past 2 months or so, i have realized this, and realized there may have been some flaws in my life outlook. before very recently, as most of you could probably tell, i avoided confrontation. this meant i kept my opinions to myself unless i thought they wouldn't really be controversial, and i adopted a pretty uncaring pose towards everything. So basically, what that meant is i took it up the ass about a lot of little things and just accepted it. i didn't really care too much. it wasn't until i started taking it up the ass about everything, and a lot of big things that i realized there was a problem. well, i am tired of taking it up the ass. this room isn't something i am going to sway on. it is about the principle of it, and the fact that jay thinks he has the right and the absolute veto power to get final say on everything in concerns with the house. he keeps telling me "it might be a moot point" because he won't like the other room. WHAT THE FUCK. both of us like the one room, just because you don't like the other room as much IN NO WAY IN FUCK HELL means that you deserve the other room. that is what is really pissing me off, because he has been doing this the whole time looking for a house. at first, he refused to look anywhere but wallingford. that is why Air and I took over the whole house hunt, because he was being a bitch. he almost refused to go look at the 6 person house. granted it sucks, but he hadn't even seen it period, and he was ready to sign off on it. and he is keeping his huge entertainment system in his room. that, i can kind of understand, but what the fuck. what is he going to do in his room with a huge tv and bose surround sound system. we are already mad at him for that, and that damn entertainment system is one of the reasons he is demanding the other room. god fucking dammit!!! not only is he not putting it out in the main room for everyone where it belongs, but he is trying to skank my fucking room because of it!!! if i allow this, i basically get a big fucking rod up my ass TWICE. I hope i don't seem petty here, but it is really pissing me off right now. I had a hard time saying things pissed me off for a long time. I waited too long. people still expect me to be a fucking push over, but i am working hard at not being one. i see this as a major step, because this is something i would usually TOTALLY back down on. i probably should back down, but i am not going too. No, I want that room, and in a fair world I would get this room. I want things in this house to be as fair as possible. if i start out by letting jay bend me over, what is the rest of the time we live together going to be like?

frivved up by Ben at 2:49 PM

as jay and i are already at fucking odds, and we still don't move in for a week. he thinks he deserves that room. i don't know how his insane logic works. He said "he has stuff" therefore it should be his. what the fuck. anyways, there was already a predetermined way, thought up by him as far as i know, for room picking dating back to our original house. originally at this house, first pick was going to be air, and then me, because we put forward the effort to get the house. air put forward more effort, and was going to be the guy on the lease, so, he got first pick. then trav came up with $1000 on 3 hours notice like the god he is, so he got 2nd pick, bumping me to 3rd. meanwhile, jay has done nothing but go look at it once, combined with the fact that he isn't willing to put his home theater out into a common area, he is leaving it in his room. He put forward the most effort on the first house, so therefore when we were going with the first house, he got first pick. he was fine with that, everyone was fine with that, but now that he didn't put forward any effort, and therefore won't be getting first pick, he is not fine with that. good god, i am glad i am moving in with air and trav as well :) jay, i love him, but sometimes he really gets on my nerves.

That room is mine. i swear, if he keeps this up i am going to get really pissed. there shouldn't be any fucking debate about it. air wants the bunker room. trav wants another down stairs room. it is my turn, i want the bigger room upstairs.

quote:
Absolut Stock Inflator says:
IF the rooms ARE pretty much the same size, i have no problem with the room next to the living room

he knows how big the two rooms are, and he knows he doesn't want the smaller one. he is still thinking somehow he has more say, and he can refuse to take that other room and demand the bigger room. but the bigger room is mine already. BAH, i don't know why this is pissing me off so much. I don't know how it is even a big deal, but it is. fuck this, where does he get off thinking that he should get next pick, just because he says so. i know, why don't we all just drop our pants and bend over while he sits around and sticks us all up the ass and takes all 5 rooms to himself.

IT IS MY ROOM fucker. i have third pick, i take the big room upstairs. he made the rules, yet now he refuses to abide by them because they don't fit along with what he wants. BAH BAH BAH BAH BAH BAH. why is this pissing me off so much

frivved up by Ben at 1:56 AM

alright, now that it is really the 27th, we can get a CD of the day going on :D so yeah, going old school today (kind of). Soundgarden - Superunknown. my favorite cd from when i was first discovering music. hell yeah, i love that album.

so yeah, whats up today. not much. watched 2 movies today, pearl harbor, and little nicky. pearl harbor was actually pretty good i thought. not spectacular or stupendous, but definitely worth seeing. little nicky, contrary to popular belief, was actually really funny. it was pretty stupid, but i was laughing. i recommend you rent it or whatever if you haven't seen it already. it has prompted us to plan a heaven/hell party for some time in our new house. that should be pretty cool.

not much really happened today. i bought new sheets, really expensive ones. they are going to be awesome. i can't wait to move in. next week is just going to draaaaaaaag on, i know it.

frivved up by Ben at 11:55 PM

FUCK it is technically the 27th, but i don't have a CD of the day for the 26th.

well, today was a good day. I don't think i have put this one yet, but in honor of air, i am going to say Linkin Park - Hybrid theory. i have been saving that one for a rainy day, but piiiiiiiimpin, it is todays (the 26th) cd of the day. so yeah, BEYOTCH. go get it or something.

I bought a bed today, oh my god, it is going to be so comfortable. it is one of those ones that have the extra layer of pillowy shit on top of the actual matress thing. it is kind of an in between firmness for me. everyone else would probably sink right down, but i kind of float on it. it is perfect. it is queen size, ohhh baby. i don't fit on anything else (my legs hang off the end) but holy shnikes, queen size is nice. yeah, and it was great. i unwittingly bartered the matress guy down. he ended up knocking like $300 bucks by the time i realized he was still trying to sell me a bed. i was just sort of ignoring him, because this was the first place i had gone, and i didn't really want to buy one right away. but he kept dropping the price, and adding things in, and adding coupons for sheets and shit. so yeah, the original matress and box spring set was supposed to be $700. the frame was another $60, and there was this teflon coating thing that was $80. then add delivery, and these coupon things in. so, i ended up getting the matress and box spring for $415, the frame for free, the teflon coating for half price, and these coupons to linens and things, along with free delivery and an extra warranty, all because i was ignoring the dude half the time playing on the other expensive matresses, lol. apprarently he thought i was playing hardball, hahahaha. so yeah, i have this absolutely pimp queen size bed for under $500 being delivered to the house next saturday. ohhhhhh fucking yeaaaaaaah.

we did stuff tonight. i am tired of typing, so i will tell you about it later. it wasn't all that exciting. we played in a park, and i stole a base. that is pretty much it. hail caps........ blah blah, go get the cd of the day. peace out

frivved up by Ben at 1:36 AM

hey trav, i was talking to my dad, and apparently the ballard store is really close. it is on like NW 5th ave, and 85th street, something like that. like really close, closer than my work even :D i don't know if you have seen it, but it would be a quick jaunt over the freeway, and you would be there. that would be cool, good luck with the job :) Well, i am going to go try and find a new bed this weekend, that should be fun. i figure it is about time i got a new bed. i have been using this guest bed downstairs with the pokey springs and metal ridges in it for a few years now, and it is really uncomfortable. it would be pimp to have my own bed. the only problem is, i like have to get queen size. I am tall enough that i don't fit in most beds. i have to sleep kind of sidewas almost to have my feet actually on a bed. so yeah, it will cost a little bit, but hey, it is exciting. I want that big bedroom upstairs dammit ;) it looks like jay wants it too, so i will have to fight him for it. doh, oh well, its not like the other upstairs room sucks or anything, we both just want the big room. he claims his bike is going to take up the majority of a room, and i am claiming my turntables and DJ setup is going to take up most of a room. both are bullshit, we both just want the room. hopefully i get it. i think i am next in line for choosing rooms, but whatever. i don't really care too much, but it would be cool to have that room. We are planning on having a 2 man FIGHT TO THE DEATH for it, should be fun :D i am so stoked about this house. hey air, if i get a new bed, i may need some help next weekend getting it over to the other side of the lake. i may have to enlist your truck at some point to help me get it over there. oh well, whatever, i will talk to you about it later. i can always try to stuff it in the back of the explorer, or tie it to the top or something. it will be a skankin good time. and that is skank in a good way. Skank is a good term, because skanks are just girls who don't wear many clothes. they are a lot like sluts, but you don't get to touch them. getting SKANKED however is a bad term, derived from getting SHIT GANKED, which is also very bad. anyways, so, if i say skanktastic, that is good, but if i am getting skanked, that is bad. just thought i would clear up a little terminology there :)

frivved up by Ben at 6:18 PM

booyah, mc grandma...

so yeah, good stuff. it is friday, the beginning of a 3 day weekend. it is beautiful out. and, it is one day closer to june 1st, and our new house. i have nothing to be unhappy about right now.

yes, i am happy. work breezed by. i did my homework, lol. I left early, it was great. tonight, i don't know what I am going to do tonight. It was cool chilling at stevens court last night. it had been a while since i actually had seen those gals, and forever since i saw them not at a party or something. good stuff. anyways, i have no clue whats on tap for tonight. i am going to a movie with some high school friends, but i don't know when or where. so yeah..... lol

CD recommendation of the day. I would say the new tool cd, but i don't have it, so it can't be a CD of the day. that is my rule, i have to have it for it to be cd of the day. it counts if i have it on my computer. So yeah, I am going to put one of my favorite cds, one i haven't listened too in a while, but I am right now because i missed it. today's cd of the day is Offspring - Americana. It has been a while since i touched it. hopefully i can get new tool up here soon ;) more to be blogged later

frivved up by Ben at 2:05 PM

it is still today, so i can still get this in. CD of the day is Reel Big Fish - Turn the Radio Off. I dunno, i just like this album, it puts me in a good mood.

so yeah, good news we got that fucking house :D TIGHT TIGHT TIGHT. Bad news, only 5 people are allowed to live in it. We were not about to pass this up. this was the best house we have seen by far, and she wanted to rent it to us.

so yeah, Dan, listen to me here. I am sorry you got the shaft, but don't start being a bitch about it. You were the last one to join the group. you hopped on really late. We have been looking at 5 bedroom houses mostly because there are no 6 bedroom houses. you had to have had this in the back of your mind as a possibility. you were just the last one in, so you are the odd man out. Just like when we were looking at 4 bedroom houses, and trav hopped on. if we had found a 4 person place, he would have been the odd man out. don't go taking this as a personal insult or some crazy shit like that. It doesn't have anything to do with you, you were just the unlucky guy who was last. sure it sucks, but it is the facts. you wouldn't hesitate to take it if someone else was out.

personally, i don't appreciate you changing your screen name to "Thanks a lot Fuckers" or posting blogs like the one you posted. I don't know what you meant by that blog, but it was just stupid. you are implying that this house and the whole house hunting ordeal was your idea, and you are just worthlessly getting the shaft. that is completely bullshit, and if you can't see that you need to pull your head out of your ass. i don't know if you meant the basketball blog that way, but that is the way i read it, and i am sure everyone else is reading it. so yeah, bitch move, its not our fault, don't go taking your unlucky spells out on us. we are not going to give up perhaps the greatest thing to happen to us in a long while, and throw it out because you think you should be able to jump into our housing group. we did everything we could to find a 6 person place that would work. we thought this place would work. there just isn't a 6 person place that would work available, so we stuck with the original plan. It didn't work out for you, fine, i can see how you would be upset, but settle down. it isn't like we tried to screw you over. we tried to accomodate you, which is something we didn't have to do.

fuck, i am just happy we got that house. We move in next week. peace out yo, this week has turned into a PIIIIIMPIN week :D

frivved up by Ben at 11:47 PM

alright, beyotches. bloggin time

so yeah, i was sitting at work, not doing anything in the office. i am wondering, do any of you ever get really paranoid that other people know what you are thinking? like, there are several different levels of thinking. there is the outer level, like the loudest one, the one you can control and shit, to think about stuff. then there are like other levels, where you can't really control it, it is what you are actually thinking. well, i dunno, my different levels sometimes get into arguements. no shitting, i am wondering if this is normal. i am constantly telling my outer thoughts to shut the hell up, because i am paranoid that people can hear me. it sucks, but i do it all the fucking time. i don't know why. it is really wierd. does anyone else ever do this? like, if you are with someone, like at work or something, and you just think like "i want to kill that person with my weeding tool and steal their shoes" or some shit, something that you are afraid they are going to hear, but you don't want them to hear, so you force yourself to think about other shit, just in case they hear it. shit like having an attractive female co-worker bend over and see their underwear poking out and then thinking about them with their pants off or something, something you really don't want to do, because it makes it uncomfortable. then you make excuses about it in your head, just in case they can hear it to explain yourself. i don't think this is normal behavior. i think it is borderline schitzophrenia. I do believe i have multiple personalities sometimes, because i have arguements with myself. damn, this post is making me feel uncomfortable. anyways, this is what i have been thinking about. I have been thinking a lot lately. it has been a thinking week instead of a daze out and don't think week. yes i have both. maybe this is the whole multiple personality thing again....... fuck, i am messed up. people go to therapy for this kind of shit, and i am writing it all in something called a BLOG......

frivved up by Ben at 7:59 PM

shnikes, yeah.

i have a bad feeling about this house. I think we are going to get the shaft. fuck that. it was a pimp house. there are 3 new listings today though, so we should hop on those or something.

oh yeah, and its hot. it is really hot. it feels kind of good. i am getting my crazy work tan again, with white tshirt outline and white hands from my weeding gloves, and the watch band of course. its all good, at least i am not translucent white anymore. bah, i am tired, i don't want to blog right now. Will blog later

CD of the day is Daft Punk - Discovery. Pimpin album

frivved up by Ben at 5:29 PM

Blogasm, again.

Dear lord that house ruled. I know we are going to get skanked on it, i know it. We have been skanked on everything so far in this house hunt, so we are going to get skanked again. We are going to start school again in september all living at home. I just know she isn't going to give it to us. Whenever i really get my hopes up about something, I get thrown to the ground a few days later. lol

that said, i really hope we get this house. It was perfect. plenty of room, nice location, driveway with room for at least 2 cars. Lawn area, 2 kitchens, 5+ full bedrooms, many many living rooms. washer and dryer, new furnace. laid back land lady. she wants the lease under one name, so we can just figure out the rest ourselves and she doesn't have to know or care about it. how cool is that. oh yeah, her daughter is hot, and took a shower while we are there. it was just great. I really hope we get it, it would be sweet. Air is going to call the lady tomorrow to try and get something worked out, but i just have this feeling that the people who were looking at it after us busted her a huge check like the last 2 times and we are going to get our hopes booted back to the harsh reality of the real world again. this will lead to another 3 months living at home. fuck that. i want to move out. i really hope we get this house...........

frivved up by Ben at 9:42 PM

alright, first off, i would like to devote a moment or two to manuel. I know you don't want to hear it, but I am truely sorry about what happened. I just read your blog. I have never experienced the pain that I saw in your blog. That really sucks. I am sorry. If there is anything we can do to help, we are here. I'll let you beat up on our Dan a bit, if it will make you feel better.

Gah, damn. I don't know what to say. I don't think there is anything i can say. Good luck manuel. you'll get through this.

So yeah, CD of the day is Filter - Title of Record. I was going to put that one a few days ago, but Tool won out. You guys may have noticed, most of these CDs have been rock and alternative, not techno. I am going on a little rock binge here. Badass stuff. I still listen to techno a lot, it has just has been more other music lately. I have also been listening to a lot of early 90's club dance hits like Haddaway - What is love lately, as well as the little jazz i have. I need a lot more jazz, i am really digging it. of course, there is always the spice girls and dream. you gotta have those. I guess what i am saying is, i don't have a favorite type of music right now. i still love techno, but it isn't the only thing in my life like it was for a while there. booyah

oh yeah, i would like to give a big FUCK YOU to a few of my high school friends. i know none of them read this, but i am pissed at a few of them. They came into my house while no one was home, and took my golf clubs, without telling me. That is fucking stupid. they have been home for a fucking week, i have seen them once, and they are already stealing my stuff again. learn some fucking respect, jackasses. they still have no respect for me or any of my property. fuck that. I have realized, most people change, but some people will never change. these two fuckers are stuck back in high school. I have changed, but they haven't. whenever i talk to them, they piss me off now a days. fuck them, fucking pricks.


frivved up by Ben at 1:38 PM

Yeee HAW!!!

today was a damn good day at work. It was sunny out, life was good. Then life got great. My boss took me and a few other people out to lunch, on the clock, her treat. HOT DAMN. this took us 2 hours, it was incredible. I went back to the office and fucked around for 2 hours, and went home. Hell yeah. Good food, for free, and i was on the clock WOOO HOOO. did i mention it was sunny out? what a beautiful day.

CD of the day is Papa Roach - Infest. I have been listening to it the past few days, i love coby whatever his name is voice. good shit. also, Last Resort kicks my ass ALWAYS. doesn't matter where or when i hear it, bad fucking ass. Between angels and insects is getting really good for me too. They were pimp at endfest, oh yeah.

OH YEAH! new staind comes out tomorrow NICE. I like both their songs on the radio right now. I am going to have to download this when i get a connection. There is also a bunch of techno i have been wanting to get. See a few of you on tuesday to check out that house. I hope it is sweet on the inside too.......

frivved up by Ben at 5:23 PM

Blog blablog blog blog

Buffooned I was, and out I was as well :D sorry B, you should have kicked me off earlier. I know you tried, but I was out, so yeah. lol, my bad :) good times, thanks for letting us bomb over, it was fun haha.

Alright, I came upon a realization. When we have parties, we actually have good parties. I mean, they don't just seem good because all are there and all drunk. No, we have good parties. We have music, we have people, we have dancing, we have a plethora of alcohol and other substances freely available for anyone who wants them. Because we span several 'social groups' there are usually enough people around that you don't know that you can talk too, but there are also enough people there that you do know that you still don't feel too awkward. We don't have large groups of people ringing a living room silent, staring at eachother. We have lound music, dancing and black lights and stuff. We don't have a half gallon of schmirnoff and a 12 pack as the alcohol supply. If we have a real party, we have a keg and then a bunch of fifths laying around. Otherwise, we just have insane amounts of 12 packs sitting around of a variety of beers, usually all in bottles, and then the requisite 5ths chillin in the kitchen. The only exception to this rule involves "parties" in dan and mines dorm room, where a half gallon was plenty. Even then, we usually had something instead of skyy laying around (even if it was just 151) and we provided chasers galore. And we still had music, even if there was only 6 of us. So yeah, props to us for throwing quality parties whenever we decide to do something real. Ok, so mostly props to Air and the girls at stevens court, but props to the houses as well, because i have had some pimp times there.

CD of the day today is Jamiroquai - Travelling without Moving. I had forgotten how much i absolutely LOVE this CD. Jamiroquai is pimp. I have 4 of his cds on my computer, they are great. So yeah, everyone go get it or whatever :P

There is a bunch of new house listings out today, a BUNCH. we need to act fast. there is a fucking 6 bedroom house out. holy freaking shnikes, that would be perfect. so Air and trav, or dan or blake or jay, if you read this, call me or message me or something. we should get a group and bomb over this afternoon or monday or something and check these heezies out. check you on the flipside

frivved up by Ben at 4:16 PM

ok, cd of the day for today is Tool - Ænema. Booyah grandma, I love this album. Everyone go get it. get it and like it!!! :D

so yeah, uhhh, stuff going down tonight i guess. There is a party at Marci's (Ali and Michelle's friend). I say we go, lol...... I need to get out of the house, and it is tough to turn down the offer of free alcohol. besides, there is a certain humor in it all.

frivved up by Ben at 12:54 PM

OH MY GOD

Was Shrek not the greatest movie ever made. I thought it was great. pretty much everything about it. from the awesome opening score to begin with, to the incredible graphics, to the completely hilarious subtle ultra-perverted references :D oh my god, there were some hilarious things. One of the funniest moments in movie history. He is sitting in his bed, talking to the mirror, having the mirror show him pictures of the princess. He has his hands under the covers, and goes "ohhh yeah, thats perfect." Then the fucking camera pans away. HAHAHAHAHAHAH holy shit i was busting up. I was the only person in the theater laughing, and oh god was I laughing hard. Everyone around me was just looking at me funny. I tell ya, those writers sure were tapped into my wavelength, because they had me busting up. Soooo funny, such a god damn great movie. I am glad I went and saw it :) Anyways, I am just chilling in Redmond, I am bored. I wish I lived on that side of the lake so I could chill with the rest of you buffoons. peace out for tonight, i don't know whats going on. if something earthshattering happens call me. i am just sitting around on my ass. If not, i will talk to you guys this weekend. maybe we can do something saturday? ;) lol, oh well

frivved up by Ben at 11:34 PM

woooooo haaaaaa....

well, I went to work late today, but I was the second one there so it doesn't matter anyways. So I left early too to make up for it. I love my job. the great thing is, I got a lot done today, so everyone is happy with me. I don't have a scanner, so it looks like i will be doing my next homework assignment on the clock. hell yizzat :D

ok, CD of the day. This is another one everyone should have, i suppose. Stabbing Westward - Darkest Days. They had a penny pinchers show at the croc last night that i was actually planning on going to, but i forgot about it, and forgot that I had school. so yeah, i missed it. Stabbing Westward rules. I have loved them for a while here. Their CD is one of the first full CD downloads I ever had, back in high school if I remember correctly. I dunno, maybe summer or something. Anyways, pimp CD. obviously, there are some songs I like more than others, but it is a great CD to put on in the background of anything. Save Yourself is THE best driving song ever. If I am in a car when that song comes on and driving, it is all over. The prodigy CD is turning into something like that for me. I was listening to this song, all like yeah yeah yeah, and i get to this open spot on the 520 bridge. i am like helllll yeah. I forget what song was on, maybe Mindfields. so yeah, i look down at the speedometer, and i am going 100. I didn't even realize it. That is a damn good song.

So yeah, good stuff. Dan's forums won't let me put a link in my sig, so I am boycotting them ;) actually I am not, but oh well. I don't know what forums are going to do at this point. Half the people don't even post in their blogs anymore. All it is going to be is me and trav sitting their getting pissed at Sam while Dan comes in with a few one line comments every once in a while :D the forums died long ago, blogs are the wave of the future.

Anyways, whats going down this weekend? (read: what plans do you guys have but aren't going to tell me about ;) I know something is going to go down, and I know I am going to miss it again. So yeah, I will read about what a great night you had tomorrow in someone's blog, fuckers

frivved up by Ben at 1:44 PM

blearg, how easily we are replaced. I got one of those survey things from Ali today, but a different one than the one we have been sending around. Why did she send it to me, dammit, just to rub things in? She messaged me sometime yesterday, saying we haven't talked in forever and stuff, like nothing had happened. :P Bah, I don't really want to talk to her right now.

frivved up by Ben at 3:24 PM

Ok, yesterday it was Prodigy, today it is Crystal Method. Vega$ is another CD everyone should have, even if they don't like techno. Amazing. I love it :) You should too. It is just a kick ass cd, nuff said.

On to bigger and better things :D class tonight, should be interesting at least. It usually is, if I can stay awake. We are learning about stars, it is pretty cool actually. This class is great. It is nice to have absolutely no pressure. I am pretty much guaranteed an A in that class now. It is a really good feeling. On the flip side, my media class is going kind of nuts. The media department at BCC is forcing online classes to have a full fledged final. They are going to have like manditory times where you log on and take the final, and it is going to be worth almost 4 tests (we only have 4 tests all year). it pretty much defeats the purpose of an online class. I am taking an online class because my schedule does not usually permit me to sit down at a set time and take a test, or do a project, or go to class or what not. So, I am sure they will be fruits about it and I will end up having to take my final from work or something. I am not to worried about it, considering the subject matter, but still. I am nervous that it is worth so much, and nervous that they are forcing us to do it at a set time and that my computer will break or something at that time. It will all work out, but still, i worry about these things :P

I think the car I am using is back from the shop now, so bye bye mustang ;) it has been fun driving it, even though it is a pain getting people everywhere. It made me realize how much I drive everyday, it is crazyness. So yeah, I need to find a new car pretty soon here, so we can give the one I am using to my sister when I move out. I don't know how I am going to pay for it yet, that is the only problem. I will figure something out.

There really isn't much going on right now. things are pretty quiet. work and school encompass all of my time, and school doesn't really require anytime. I get my paycheck tomorrow, which will make it all worth while :) besides the fact that I owe UW about $200 for parking tickets and random UPass fees. So yeah, my paycheck won't be that much after that, but at least it is something. I am running on empty right now. It is cool that I lasted almost 9 months on what I made over the summer. Granted, I didn't have many expenses, but it gives me hope that it is possible to make it on my own. Goes back to that whole being an adult thing. financial independance. something that sounds daunting, but is looking more and more possible.....

frivved up by Ben at 1:54 PM

Tis a slow day in blogland. Blogocity is definitely not to the MAX!

oh well. Sorry Mel for taking all that too seriously. I don't know, I felt bad about the weekend, and I saw you "get mad" or whatever at Matt, and I thought I would explain myself. It is hard for me to keep things on a light note when I don't get to see you guys or anything. So yeah, I meant what I said, but I don't think you were being as serious as I thought you were when I first read it ;)

Booyah, another midterm, another A. It is amazing how well I am doing this quarter, considering how little time I actually need to put into school now. Work is going well, school is going well, life is good :) The only real problem is, I haven't gotten a truely good night of sleep in about a month. But hey, we can't have everything. It is not like I have ever really needed sleep anyways. Why is this. Why can't I form a normal sleeping pattern like a normal human being. It is wierd, and kind of annoying.

Anyways, I didn't see any new house listings when I checked yesterday. I will keep looking. Hopefully something will come up. We really need this thing to work out. I am getting beyond tired of living at home, as I have noted before, and I am sure the rest of you are less happy than you would like about your current living situation.

On a final passing note, I have to give props to Prodigy. Fat of the Land is a fucking awesome album. If you don't have it, go download it or something. I love it. There are so many good songs on that CD. I exchanged out BT - ESCM for Prodigy and Crystal Method yesterday, so I have been blasting those on the way to school and work and such. For some reason I was more in the mood for some angry, deep techno instead of airy, happy trance. Go figure ;) There is just something cool about having Prodigy cranked while you are driving around. Pulling up to a stoplight with your window down and having that WAWWWWWWWAAAAAAHHHHHHoooooWAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH at the beginning of Firestarter just fucking blast throughout the intersection. It sends chills through my spin, and puts a smile on my face. And of course, Smack my bitch up is just a good song. It is tight, no way around it :) Fuck, that whole album is just good. I love it.

Peace out till the next blog, yo ;)

frivved up by Ben at 6:07 PM

sweet, calen reads my blog, and apparently he is the only one :D

so yeah, i'm having a good week so far. pay day is coming up, big woot to that. I need to pay off these damn parking tickets I managed to get. I owe the UW way too much money for dickass reasons. did i tell you they are sending a collection agency after me for an unpaid UPass fee? yeah, they say I owe them $75 bucks for not paying a UPass fee. They never sent my my registration or stickers. I never got a UPass. With the collection agencies fee, it is over $100. Now this is true bullshit. they still haven't gotten back to me about that $300 I owed them for "moving out early." Fuckers kicked me out with 1 day notice, now are charging for it. Fuckers kicked me out, never sent me a UPass, but now they are charging for it. Fuckers raise their parking rates to $7 a day, and on top of it they are actually checking lots. I owe them $85 dollars in parking tickets now. I am still getting dicked around by the UW. It pisses me off.

So yeah, anyways w00t for payday! I need that money, lol. Hopefully we can find a house soon. That would rock. Oh yeah, I got 100% on my last midterm for my online media class, go me. I get my astronomy midterm back today. hopefully I did well on that too. Community College is so much better.

frivved up by Ben at 2:46 PM

alright, mel needs to lay off matt. He didn't do anything wrong this weekend.

I brought everyone over to your house. They said we shouldn't come over. I came over anyways and I brought people with me. Matt didn't really have anything to do with it. I don't care that you kicked us out, I am glad you did. We invaded you. I expected to be kicked out. I don't know why I did it, but I did. *I* did. Not Matt, not anyone.

Also, do you really think he meant it when he said FUCK GIRLS or whatever he said? That is just a guy trying to help one of his friends through a bad time. You know he didn't mean it, I know he didn't mean it, it was just him being nice. I appreciated it, actually. I was really comforted by that sympathy. So lay off, he was helping me, and it actually made me feel a lot better :P

sorry you got invaded Friday, and offended by the post. Its my fault. I just want to make that clear. I was a jackass, not him, on Friday. that is ALL my fault. he was being a symbolic jackass Saturday to help my mental stability, not because he actually meant it. anyways, thanks Matt, and thanks Mel for forgiving him

frivved up by Ben at 6:08 PM

alright, pimpin. Back from work :) woot woot.

So yeah, in light of me admitting dark secrets about work, another thing happened today, lol. I show up at the park I am supposed to work at, and there is a fire truck and a buttload of police cars, and a news van. Luckily one of the dudes I work with had stopped by to tell me that everyone else is going to be late. I was right on time, I am usually a little early so I don't misjudge traffic. So, he gets there a little after when I usually get there, and there is a fire truck in the parking lot. He wanders around a bit to check something out. He gets back to the parking lot, and there are police there, who tell him a young man was shot and murdered earlier that morning. of course, his first reaction is "BEEEEENNNNN!!!!!!" I show up a little later, much to his relief. So yeah, if I had showed up early, I might have been shot today, woo hoo. what is it with my work and guns. crazyness. We got kicked out of the park, so I didn't have to weed in the rain. that was a plus.

So yeah, I had a lot of time to think today, as I didn't have much to do in the office. I was thinking about fate. I had been reconsidering my opinions on fate the last few weeks. I reconsidered them again the past few days. I realized something. There are little coincidences in every aspect of life. It is human nature to try and find patterns in things. Hence, people believing in fate, and that these coincidences happen for a reason. When something happens, people want it to be for a reason, so they just start noticing all the little coincidences. Of course, they were always there, they just didn't notice them before. It is kind of like when you get a new car. The next few days after, like every third car you see is EXACTLY like your new car. Obviously I am exaggerating a bit, but you all know what I am talking about. All those cars were there before, but you just had no reason to recognize them. Now that you own a car like them, you start seeing them more.

The human mind tends to try and find meaning in everything. The thought that life is out of our control is scary. Thus, we go out of our way to distract ourselves, and convince ourselves that certain things are true. They usually are not, but we take comfort in the thought that they may be true. So yeah, fate is just a mind set. It is just our minds trying to find patterns in everyday life, nothing more. There is no cosmic aura that controls everything. Booyah.

frivved up by Ben at 5:44 PM

Workocity, TO THE MAX. not really, more of an after lunch break break here, short so my bosses don't find me

frivved up by Ben at 1:07 PM

ok, well, actually I am curious. I was talking to Air today, and he said the girls at Steven's Court read these blogs. That is crazy. We have like readers, and fans and stuff. I always thought it was like manuel and trav who read mine, with other people everyonce in a while. But the fact that other people besides the people who have blogs read them is crazy. so yeah, if you read this, shoot me an email that says "I read your blog, and I am scared by your inner thoughts" or something to that nature. I am just curious as to who actually reads this thing :) last blog this hour, I promise :P

ok, fuck it. Blogger is pissing me off. last published: 5/13/2001 7:10:41 PM my ass. this shit better work

frivved up by Ben at 7:04 PM

Ok, this is really making me annoyed. BLOG DAMN YOU. I need my daily dose of Blogocity. Today, Blogocity is definitely not to the MAX. Damn thing won't even publish. I even wrote stuff.

Well, at least this is fixing my problem with premature Blogasm. hahahahahah, ok maybe not, considering i have blogged like 7 freaking times in the past 2 days. fuck it. i just want it to publish

frivved up by Ben at 6:16 PM

Aighty Tighties, blogger better start working soon

I sent out my little survey, and I would like to make a few changes already ;)

for my name: my name is NOT Dan Glasser, contrary to popular belief. I am a dumbass and forgot to change it.

for the best kisser part: I remembered that girl from last summers name, it was Carrie. HAH take that brain cells, I managed not to kill all of you that night!!! booyah!!! I still was too out of it to get her number, oh well :P These kids and their methamphetamines today.

for the best conversationalist part: I am changing my choice to THIS BLOG. I don't know how I overlooked this when I was filling it out. I talk to this blog more than I do real people. good old blog, where would I be without you.

for the darkest secret part: I feel I should give some sort of explanation. Yes, some dude did point a gun at me a few weeks ago. Scary shit. I was driving between the park I was at and the office. I was in south central seattle, right off rainier ave near Rainer Beach high school. There is this house I drive past when I go to this park that always has all these blingin cars out in front, and is completely out of place in the neighbor hood. I drove past, there were all these cars (more than usualy) and a guy sitting in a pimped caddie with rims and the whole 9 yards. I was curious, so I looked over to try and see what was going on. He motioned for me to move along with this big silver gun. It was so surreal, exactly like what you see in a movie. I look back at it and laugh now. It scared the shit out of me when it happened though. So yeah, its all good, don't go telling my job or parents or anything. I want to keep my job thank you. So now the truth is out, everyone knows. It isn't just another thing for me to keep pent up inside. Ok, its not my darkest secret, but it was the darkest secret I care to share :P I have things I will never tell anyone from my hell years in junior high. So yeah! stop complaining. At least I shared a dark secret!!! oh wait, you weren't complaining, that was me. Shit

frivved up by Ben at 3:08 PM

Ok, Blogger really is out. If i get this error one more time, lol. At least it posts now. The first few times i saw Error 210 OwnerID: 186372 BlogID: 2913808, It was on the main page down there, and it deleted everything i had written. What you gonna do. There is only one person coding this masterpiece of a webpage. He works his ass off. Blogger is a wonderful thing, even if I do get this damn error 9/10 times I try to post.

frivved up by Ben at 12:26 PM

Fuck....

Another night of fun missed out by me. Why? because i didn't feel like going to a birthday party for Chris Couture, and therefore was out of the loop again. You guys were even on the eastside. Why didn't you fucking tell me you were going back to party? Thats why I asked if the party was going to be an all night thing. Fuck it, it doesn't matter. I got to spend another saturday night alone at home watching TV in front of my computer. Good times. I was here, waiting for something to go down. All it would have taken was an ICQ or a phone call, and I would have been over there. I guess I really blew it by not buffooning after Mummy Returns. My bad. Reason #45980988800000 I hate living at home.

Matt, you have no reason to feel bad for Friday night. We knew it was going to happen. We came over anyways. You told us not to. We ignored you and came over anyways. I am surprised you guys let us stay so long in the first place. Its our bad, and like you said, what can you do :) Just want to clear that up.

So yeah, I am over it. You know what I am talking about. I had my alotted one day "feel sorry for myself about it" day. Now I can move on with my life. Thanks for the kind words everyone, but shit happens to the best of us. You just have to take it in stride, and wait for the next slap in the face. I am just waiting to hear from her so she can further try to toy with me. How much you want to bet in the next week she tries to talk to me like nothing happened. I can hear it now. Oh, I realized I was wrong, I really do like you again. Then it will be my turn. I am over it, I am resiliant. If you have known me for any amount of time, it takes a lot to really get me down. More than this anyways. I am through complaining about this (ok, so we all know thats not true, but hey, through for now).

So yeah, its Mothers Day. Personally, I hate all these stupid holidays. I mean, what the hell does this make us look like. You are all bad children who don't spend enough time with your mother, so we are going to make a day and force you to spend it with your mother. Mothers Day, Fathers Day, Veterans Day, Memorial Day, Valentines Day, a plethora of other useless holidays. All reasons for us to be forced to spend more money and get slammed if we forget. No, i didn't forget, and yes i am doing something for my mom, i just think it is stupid. I guess i should start taking my mom for granted. It will make mothers day much easier. You would think Birthdays, Easter, Christmas, Anniversaries, etc. would be enough, but no, now we need to go out and spend more money on more useless presents. I am not a rich man. But I love my mother, and today is mothers day, there is nothing i can do about it. When I am a father, I am going to refuse to let anyone do anything for me on Fathers Day.

frivved up by Ben at 12:23 PM

lol, i am wierd. I have been thinking about the topic of thinking today, lol. I always wonder if i think more or less than people. I think it goes in phases. There are times where I am just always thinking about something. I just kind of daze off and think about anything and everything. then there are days where i don't think at all. I sit, watch tv, and don't even absorb it. So, i end up over or under analyzing things, depending on what mood i am in. I don't know why this is relevant, it is just something i was thinking about and thought i would put down. thinking is such a funny thing to me.

frivved up by Ben at 7:23 PM

ahhhhh, adulthood. I think there are a few things that make people more adult. I see adulthood and manhood as seperate things, although a lot of what see defines the difference between childhood and adulthood, and boyhood and manhood are the same. Ok, so they aren't seperate things, I just look at the terms differently, i suppose.

a few things I see seperates you from childhood. Having a full time job, and along with this gaining financial independance. There are a lot of things summed up in this one: moving out and paying for it yourself, having your own insurance, making your own car and school payments to name a few. You can't be an adult without these things. Being an adult is about gaining all independance from everyone, and being able to support yourself without help. And no, I don't see myself as an adult, far from it. Another thing that I see as very important and defining factor is being able to hold a lasting and meaningful relationship with the member of the opposite sex. Lumped into this, kind of, is losing your virginity. I think there is a difference between losing your virginity and having meaningful sex though. anyone can stick it in. Being able to perform the act doesn't make you an adult. To many people say that losing their virginity is the defining moment in becoming a man. I think that is bullshit. It is defintely an important step, but far from THE step. So yeah, back to the relationship thing. It is important have the maturity to hold a relationship with another person for an extend period of time. I am not sure if I have this maturity. I guess i won't know for a while now ;) I don't think I want a lasting relationship now. I don't think I want to be an adult yet.

There are obviously other things. I will probably think of some later and come and post them, but those two things stand out in my mind right now. I feel I am close to being able to handle both of these things. I also feel I am not an adult, and because I cannot handle these things right now, I am far from being one.

frivved up by Ben at 5:20 PM

ok, so we crashed Matt's house last night, and pissed everyone off. sorry about that, lol :)

Alright, where to begin. Things between Ali and I are over. I don't know if she knows that they are completely over, or wants them to be completely over, but I am ready to wash my hands of this situation. Bring us to thursday night. One of her friends is talking to me on messenger. She tells me all this stuff about how I was going to get kicked to the street and I was being played like a tool, but I saw the truth in it, and it is nothing I hadn't thought about. It was just really really harsh, and it pissed me off. Then she made a pass at me, and told me that Ali was tired of me and trying to set me and her up. I was just like bah, ignored the comment, and chatted politely with her for a little bit longer then went to bed. I was pissed, because at this point I thought it was all true. I couldn't sleep of course, so finally I got up and told work I wasn't coming in, and sent a message to Ali asking her why she did it. She got pissed at me at first, then I told her everything her friend had said, then she got mad at her friend. Then she told me she would never, do anything like that, and that she really liked me and wanted to be with me and all that jazz. Basically said she would never kick me to the curb like her friend said. I knew it was going to happen eventually, but at least now I was hoping it wouldn't happen for a while. So basically I am feeling good, because she had said it was all untrue, and I believed her. Hence the need to do something Friday night, so I can see her.

That was friday morning, emotionally draining, but leaving me feeling good (even through the exhaustion). I went over around noon or so to check out a house with Jay, then we hung out for a bit. Eventually, we went over to Dans, called some friends over and tried to figure out what to do. The outlook is bleak, as Matt tells us nothing is going on, even though a few of the usual suspects are over there. They tell us not to come over, which we ignore. So, Alicia gets home, things are ok, she is fine with us being there, until Ali and her gang showed up, lol. My bad guys, I appologize ;) So, we leave, and go to someone else's house. things are going ok, i guess. I was drinking, which is always good, but Ali is acting a little distant. I am just like shit... So eventually, she pulls me out into my car, and gives me the whole "I can't limit myself to one guy right now" speech. What the fuck. Pisses me off. I get booted to the curb, exactly what she promised not to do THE SAME FUCKING MORNING. I wish I could remember that conversation a little better. I was pretty drunk. Actually, I probably don't want to remember it all, it would just make me more mad. So yeah. I'm not sure what she thinks is going to happen, but I assume she is just going to cast me aside, never to be heard from again. After all that shit that morning about how there was no way she was going to do this.

This really makes me mad. She has been leading me on for 3 weeks now, and doing a really good job at it. She actually had me convinced she wanted to be with me, even through all the doubts. Even after I called her out on it Friday morning, she convinced me back. All lies. She didn't really want me. She was just jerking me around the entire time. Whatever, it happens a lot. I brought it on myself by being way too attached way too early. I believe she knew what she was doing. She wrapped me around her little finger knowing this would happen, and just kept wrapping tighter. Finally she got bored of having me as her little toy so she tosses me in the trash. It is all a scenario I had played out in my head and that her friend legitamized, but still I didn't want to believe it. Stupid. I saw it coming, which lessens the blow. But still, it makes me a little mad. A lot of things make me mad about it. The fact that she has been lying, that makes me really mad. Why would she say these things that she doesn't really mean. Why did she let me say what I did, and come right back with the same things when she didn't really mean them. Why did she feel the need to jerk me around. Why didn't she just tell me in the morning, instead of lying again, leading me on more, only to do it that fucking night, successfully ruining it. She didn't even wait till the end of the party, it was right in the middle. Why did she do that, that was just cruel.

So yeah, I really shouldn't be complaining. It was a fun 3 weeks. Even if she did just use me, she picked me to jerk around. My confidence is still higher than it has been in a long time because of this. She had to have seen something in me, otherwise she would have just brushed me off. I think she did actually like me at some point. I don't believe everything she said was a lie. I believe there was a point where she had genuinely strong feelings for me. I believe she wasn't just using me as toy the entire 3 weeks. I believe she is just a fickle, indecisive woman with an extremely short attention span. I was just the flavor of the week, so to speak. So yeah, I had fun, it takes something truely monumental to actually get me down, and this wasn't. It was only 3 weeks, its not like we had a real relationship or anything. By tomorrow it will be more or less forgotten, and I will be back to normal :) I try not to dwell on things. live and learn. things happen. things aren't always good. there is nothing you can do about it.

So yeah, whats up tonight, lol ;)

frivved up by Ben at 5:05 PM

haha, well the day is finally here :) WAnk is back to his old jaded self, I believe. I saw it coming, so it is more of a relief than anything else. So, yes, you can all feel free to kick me when I am down today, because hopefully by tomorrow i will be all good ;)

frivved up by Ben at 10:35 AM

what a freaking wierd night and morning I have had. I will talk about it later when i have had time to realize what actually happened, lol. i am still kind of dazed ;) good thing i skipped work today :)

frivved up by Ben at 11:07 AM

nostalgic ;) ..........

alright, time to bring back a WAnkblog tradition. it is time for a good old traffic rage blog. So, yeah, people are still morons, even when I am happy in life, and they still piss me off because they can't drive. How come no one else can drive, i mean everyone seems to be terrible. It is even worse when I drive my dads car, because i want to like go and stuff. hint for today, when you pull out into traffic after turning right on a red, make sure no one is coming. I had a moron pull out on a red light turning right. it was a two lane road, so i was like whatever. the fucker swings wide, all the way into the outside lane, the lane i happen to be in. The only thing is, he doesn't pull all the way into the lane. So i slam on the breaks and rev my engine at him, and try to pull into the lane next to him to go around his slow non-accellerating ass. but he is still in 2 fucking lanes. BAH I SAY. so, i finally force him into a lane, and fucking haul ass past him finger extended. god damn shit like that pisses me off. lol, that felt good. it has been a long time since i had a good old fashioned traffic rage post :D

in other news, i aced my midterm. even if i didn't, it doesn't matter, i aced it. i am seeing a pattern develop. leave 5 min for Media midterms, and 15 min for astronomy midterms. I was finished in 10, but looked it all back over. I should do well it is pimp :D and if i don't, who cares, i get to drop my lowest test. i love this class. anyways, half day at work tomorrow, woot, and it is in the office. oh baby, i can see the slack brewing now. expect some good blog action from a bored me sitting around at work. oh yeah. after that is weekendy goodness. I have to find some way to see Ali. If i don't, i will waste away and DIE. no really, i really want to see her. it sucks living all they way over here. peace out for tonight, unless i think of something else

frivved up by Ben at 6:54 PM

annoyance, happy......

FUCK YOU BLOGGER FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!! bah, so i have this huge long thing posted out, and then blogger errors when i try to post it. so i write it out again, and it FUCKING KILLS IE. BAHHHHHHH!!!

lol, ok now that i have that out of the way ;)

Happy Birthday Lesley. Get really drunk, and pass out somewhere :D i don't know if you read this, but yeah, here's 21 spankings from me :P

The last few weeks have been filled with anticipation and excitement. Between Ali, the new job, and that house, things were a little crazy. Now things are quieting down a little bit for me. The last few days have been almost normal (except for yesterday). Anyways, it is kind of nice not having this constant half tension about something or another, but it is kind of strange to relax..... Of course, I have a midterm tonight so I am not relaxing.

Air, we really need to move out of our respective houses. Your house floods, and it is way too small from what I hear. I hate my parents and living at home, and I am sick of being no where near Ali ALL THE TIME. I think it is pimp that you are going to call that house. I have been trying to hook up with Jay so we can go over there and look at it, but our schedules are completely conflicting. I get off at noon tomorrow, so if you guys want to go look at it sometime this weekend I am down. We should also do something this weekend. I feel bad that I skipped out on basically everything last weekend. If something goes on, blog it, icq it or ring it this way. I will get off my lazy ass and head on over :)

So yeah, Ali has the flu or something. Apparently it was pretty bad, because she went home last night to Renton :/ Poor thing, at least she went home. Being sick is never fun, and being really sick in the dorms is just hell. So, this was supposed to give me time to study. So, of course, I fall asleep studying. I am ready for my test, but it was just like dammit, i make the attempt and all, and i have to fall asleep at like 10 when i meant to study. It was annoying. At least I got some sleep. Ali was going to call last night, but luckily she didn't, because i was passed out face first drooling on my astronomy book.

Well, this is the condensed version of what i really meant to say before it was lost in the bowels of cyberspace. I can't remember what i talked about the first time, but this pretty much sums it up. i hate it when that happens........ Oh well, I will blog again after my midterm tonight, i am sure. I am a loser like that, lol

frivved up by Ben at 3:09 PM

sweetness......

Well, today was one of those wierd days. Yesterday, the car I drive broke down. It started making all sorts of noises, we have to take it to the shop. Because of this, I got to drive the mustang to work, bonus to the max. Also, Dan won passes to the Tantric end session today. I wasn't able to help him pick them up after work yesterday, because of lots of shit and a little miscommunication, but Trav managed to help him. Then Trav had something to do, so I was back in the driver's seat for that second pass. So, I make an excuse about having something to do because my car broke down for work, and leave an hour early so I can go get Dan. We get to the end session right on time. So, let me describe this place. There is a little studio thing we didn't get to see where the actual end session was going to take place. We were all standing around in this little waiting area, all 20 or so of us with passes. So we are standing around, and an excited buzz is going through the room. Then the lead singer non chalantly wanders through the croud to the door. We are all just like, wooooooooah. So, after a little bit, we file into this tiny room with all this sound equipment, and a few minutes later the pimps from Tantric wander in. They play an absolutely amazing 30 minute set for us. me and dan are sitting like 5 feet away from them. The guitarist is just incredible. I can't begin to describe the shit he did. He has all sorts of effect pedals, so he was constantly dancing to hit them. He also changed the tuning on his guitar strings in mid song as an effect. It was nuts. He ended up using 3 guitars during the set, because of the whole tuning thing I would assume. So, they sounded incredible. I loved it, and they were right the fuck in front of us. Afterwards, there is a meet and greet session, so I got to talk to the guys. The lead singer and I had a little conversation about his new tattoo. He was completely down to earth and funny, it was great. Dan and I were among the last people to leave, and we shook hands with a few of the band members and left, in a daze. Dan ended up with an autographed CD because he won passes. We both got our badges autographed by the whole band. I wander back into work 3 hours after making an excuse and leaving. Of course, I got paid for all this, it was just an extended lunch break. besides, my bosses didn't even notice i was gone.

It was a pimp day. Ali went home to Renton because she has the flu, but she promised to call me later. This was a good day, even if I didn't get to talk to Ali. This is the first day that I would classify as really good where I haven't gotten to see her in the past few weeks. All it took was an exclusive session with my favorite band, lol ;) anyways, it was cool.



frivved up by Ben at 7:31 PM

tired........

work is work. working in the rain is fine, i don't really mind it too much, it just makes me cold and tired. coming home always feels that much better. I am not in the mood to blog, i am not in the mood to do anything right now. Ali is at work, and I am exhausted. I think i am going to take a nap or something

frivved up by Ben at 2:53 PM

happyness..........

Ali was sending me pictures of herself on her webcam tonight, it was one of the sweetest things anyone has ever done for me. I have this one of her blowing a kiss staring at me from my computer screen that just makes me melt. it is great.

Good to see sir cockaslot back in the mix. I was hoping he wouldn't give up for good, I enjoy reading everyone's blogs, and it would have sucked to lose one of our own. Viva L'Alliance!

frivved up by Ben at 11:34 PM

torture.......

She is always there in the back of my mind. I am always thinking about her. I am losing it, lol.

I went back and looked at some WAnkives, it really made me laugh. going through all the traffic rage blogs, and the ones about how I didn't have a job or a girl, and how i didn't care if i was single, unsuccessful and poor. I especially liked the one where I was like, i don't want to be happy. could any of you actually see me as happy and successful? well here I am now, happy and successful. I didn't have to try or anything, it all just fell into my lap. really wierd, i am still confused.

School is pretty much nonexistant in my life right now, it is kind of funny. I don't really think about it beyond the 4 hours i spend actually at class, or the 1 time a week maybe i check my online class. Class was like, the thing in my life like a month ago, now i don't even notice it. haha, whatever, i have homework to do tonight, i think, i should check that. Whatever, class dumb.......

I had this whole huge blog planned, but it has slipped my mind.....for some reason I get distracted easily lately. I wonder what could be doing that.......

frivved up by Ben at 7:07 PM

another blog (yes i know i suck)

anyways, the past 24 hours have been really weird. I lose a house, get bills from 2 collection agencies, and get a jury summons for the regional court in kent on june 13th, which is right in the middle of my finals. so now i have to try and get my work to write me a letter to get me out of it, because there is no area for a hardship for academic purposes. the world can be filled with such stupid bullshit sometimes, lol.

There is a new house add out... I would like Trav and Air to consider this: University District - walk to cam pus 5+bd 2ba $1,950 mo. 5242 11th Ave NE (206) 524-1957.

it sounds really good. the add literally came out today, and it is in prime location. I mean perfect. It is two blocks away from Po's, in that little neighborhood there. We should check it out, and get Jay to contact the guy if it looks good. I mean shit, walking distance from the UW. nice, and cheaper than the other one. good stuff.

So yeah, Ali is still at her house. I don't know why I am talking about this, it doesn't really have any bearing on anything. It is just hard to hold a conversation when her mom is looking over her shoulder, hahahaha. I have no idea when she is getting back to her dorm. why can't i stop thinking about her. i just saw her yesterday, too. I guess wasn't enough :(. oh well, i still had a great time, and the time we spent together is infinitely better than not being able to see her at all this weekend.

I really need to move out of here. It sucks not being able to see her. It is one thing to say "hey, want to do something?" when you live 8 blocks away. It is nearly impossible when you have a drive that ranges from anywhere from a half hour to an hour and a half. Also, my parents have really been wearing on my lately. My dad seems to be forgetting a few things we agreed on when i moved back in. He is starting in with the whole "when you live in my house" thing again. I swear, I have more rules than I did at the end of high school. I am not complaining about having rules, i mean i am kind of imposing on them here. There have just been some realllllly really stupid things lately. I didn't tell them i wasn't going to be home after work friday, and I showed up around midnight or so after the movie. He is mad at me now because of that. Bah. Everything that happens at home seems to piss me off. Even my dog is getting annoying now. I never thought my dog would get on my nerves............

frivved up by Ben at 6:55 PM

jesus you guys, settle down. A blog is just a blog. i have no idea what is going on, but i do know this little quarrel is just stupid.....

as for the alliance, since when did it actually become substantial? it is a row of fucking links to the blogs of people we know and love from our little clique. it doesn't go deeper than that. it is just a fucking row of links, lol. Everyone put whatever the hell you want in your blogs. I don't know about the rest of you, but this blog is for me. It is a way to get my emotions out instead of holding them all in. Right now, I think there are maybe 1 or 2 people i am comfortable confiding everything in, which is 1 or 2 more than i have ever had. There are still things about me that I will never tell anyone. That is one of my major flaws. I hold so much back, from everyone, because I am afraid. This blog is a way for me to be open about things i normally wouldn't be open about. it is a step in the right direction for me. Even if you guys stop blogging, and stop reading, i am going to keep doing it. I think blogging is a good thing, even if no one reads it. So yeah, say whatever the hell you please, and don't get mad at what other people say. Your blog should have no audience beyond yourself.

yes i am a hypocrite. everyone is. I just wrote this blog for the viewing of everyone else, because i felt it needed to be done. hypocracy isn't bad, per se. It makes us human.

frivved up by Ben at 11:52 AM

Blogger doesn't seem to be working right now. When it finally does you guys are going to have a bunch of posts to read. damn you dante anyways! grrrr........

So yeah, I am awake now, still pissed because I am going to have to get a loan from my parents until I actually get my next paycheck on the 17th. I didn't want to have to do this, but i just payed off my credit card bill, which had school books on it, which killed my bank account for the next few days. so yeah, this is a big FU to the university of washington. I should have gone to fucking boston. UW has been trying to ruin my life. apparently it wasn't enough that they destroy my academic career, but now they are trying to destroy the credit i have been building since i was 17. I have perfect credit. Anything less than perfect credit and you are dead. Now they whip out this crap that could feasibly destroy my credit. It pisses me off.

Well, we should go house hunting today, that would be fun. We need a house. I can't stand it here

frivved up by Ben at 10:41 AM

WHAT THE FUCK

this day has gone from fucking incredible, to annoying to a FUCKING PILE OF SHIT. yes, i am that annoyed right now. i am so annoyed, i don't even feel like getting drunk. UW has 2 collection agencies after me now, one for a parking ticket months ago i never got, and one for some $85.00 "fee" i was also never notified about. My dad is really pissed at them, and now I owe like $150 total to these fucking asses, all for completely absurd reasons that are either really dumb, or that I have no idea existed until i got a bill that says basically "pay now or we ruin your credit forever." What the fuck do these jackasses want? what is this money they claim i owe them? I have no idea what it is. so yeah, it is really annoying, because i was having SUCH a great day. I drop off Ali at her house, and everything goes to shit. I find out we didn't get the house, I get home, and I get these two fucking bills from collection agencies. Dan calls me up expecting me to come over, but doesn't tell me what we are going to do. this stupid "we might do something maybe at po's house or stevens court" was just like, yeah, ok, let me get off my ass and drive for a half hour for plans you don't really have. then i can go sit around, and eventually fall asleep on someones couch because nothing is actually going on. fuck that, even when i am drunk that is boring. so yeah, you guys have your night doing whatever the hell you found to do, and I am going to chill here.

I need to move out of this house. Life at home in solitude is making me bitter and over emotional. It did make me realize how stupid this year was as compared to last year, even when I was at the UW. I think i have actually hung out with you guys more now that i got kicked out. living at the dorms blew first quarter. i never heard what was going on. Getting kicked out of UW was a mixed blessing. If i didn't have to deal with this extraneous bureaucratic bullshit, i would actually be happy it happened. When we finally find a house and move in, I will be really happy it happened.

Dammit, i wish i was with ali....

frivved up by Ben at 11:08 PM

dazed, incredibly happy..........

Well, we just had an incredible time. She had never been to a baseball game before, so I got to look all cool by relaying my baseball knowledge to her and answering her questions. It was pretty cool. We both had so much fun. The game was excellent. Mariners won 7-5. There were plenty of hits and home runs, the game was close the entire way, and Ichiro and Kazu mopped up. Besides that, we were there together. It was so great just to be able to look at her, and hold her hand, just generally be close to her. Dammit, we need that house......

so yeah, i drove her back to her house in Renton. apparently she is not coming back to UW tonight. Dan says there is a party at Michelle's tonight, so she will probably be there. I don't really care what goes on tonight. I am pretty much oblivious to the world right now.

Today was great.... I woke up, and my parents weren't home. The house was quiet, and there were no annoying people trying to talk to me as I am going about my business trying to wake up. I got pulled over on the way to the freeway for going 46 in a 35 zone, and the guy let me off, and was actually a really nice guy about it. who knew. Then I got to spend a good 6-7 hours with Ali, between the game and driving her home. It was really nice, I am in such a good mood. Everything seems to be going well today. Plus, it is the weekend, i don't have to work.

hehe, listen to me. It feels really good to be happy. I haven't been really happy like this in a long long time. I have great friends, a great girl, a great job, and a great house on the horizon. Things just seem to be clicking for me, in all aspects of my life. I can't even remember the last time this happened. Granted I complain, but I am a whiney little bitch, I complain about a lot of things. I am really truely starting to pull myself out of the shitty depression I had fallen in after getting kicked out of college. I don't even really think about that anymore, it is kind of funny. After months of having my head filled with thoughts that I was a failure and that I had some how been deeply wronged, I don't even care anymore.

on a crappier note, while i was writing this i found out we DIDN'T GET THE FUCKING HOUSE. BAH. after all that, now I am in a bad mood, lol. haha, well things were going way too well anyways, lol :)

frivved up by Ben at 7:09 PM

relief, anticipation........

she made it back, had a good time, good stuff :) i don't know, i was in a bad mood last night, and i got a fucking parking ticket at McMahon. there were all sorts of open spots around me on a friday night, and they fucking ticket me. Bastages.

So yeah, i hated the movie last night. Call me a freak, but i thought it was just... stupid..... There was non stop action, but the action was so fucking bad! How many fucking guys can they have shooting at them from 10 feet away and miss. The movie was way too long, and had too much cheesy CGI. I don't mind CGI, i just mind when you can completely tell it is CGI. i mean come on, the rock being computer animated for the whole closing sequence? that whole tree explosion thing??? that computer animation was so bad by todays standards. i guess i am just picky. The only saving grace of the movie itself was the kid, i thought he was hilarious. and whenever rachel weisz fought, it was pretty good. anyways, it was worth it to see all those previews. holy fucking shit, where is the mop and towel. I was spent. I don't care, it was sweet to roll out as a posse like that again. We need to do it more often.

Matt's blog, lol, how fucking cool is it that Matt has a blog. And manuel, your last blog was fucking hilarious. Matt is the antichrist!!!!! KILL!!!!!!

anyways, i've got to go get ready. Today is going to be a good day :)

frivved up by Ben at 10:16 AM

regret, fear.......

fucking eh what a stupid day this was. Work took forever, i am exhausted, and i thought the movie was terrible. Ali couldn't come to the movie....... Ali is in Bellingham at a kegger right now because she couldn't come to the movie. We are supposed to go to the Mariners game tomorrow, I hope she gets back in time. I am really really looking forward to see her tomorrow, but right now all I have is this stupid vision of some drunk freaking trying to get all over her. Then I get really jealous again, lol. Please please please let her be back tomorrow. My excitement for the game, and more importantly the fact that I will be able to spend time with her is what has gotten me through the week.

frivved up by Ben at 12:46 AM

why do i beat myself up over little things. why am do i always question myself. why does trav have to be so right, then go on and post more about ashleigh, lol. it is a confidence thing, in that i don't have any. I never have, really. I try to be confident, but it doesn't work. this is why i haven't had a girlfriend since highschool. It isn't that i couldn't get one, it was that i had convinced myself i couldn't get one. I convinced myself i was unattractive, boring, lazy, and annoying. I am lazy, and i can be annoying and boring at times, and i have no idea whether i am attractive or not, but i would not use these words to characterize myself right now. dammit trav you suck. you are making me think about myself, and my flaws, bastage ;) eventually i will have confidence, and i will be able to be normal, but i am not quite there yet. the trick is hiding this fact from everyone else, which i think i do an ok job at.

I like reading blogs. I get all sorts of insights on to who people are, things i never would have picked up on in conversations. I like to be able to say anything i want, and not care who reads it. this blog is open to anyone in the universe, if they happen to find it. sometimes i am kind of curious who actually reads this, but in other ways i don't care. this blog isn't for anyone but myself. I use this as a release.

oh yeah, my song was Dolly Parton - 9 to 5. doesn't get much worse.......

today is PAY DAY!!!! fuck yeah, i can pay off my credit card bill

frivved up by Ben at 6:07 PM

life is fleeting, enjoy the little things while you can. The little things are what make life so great.

for example, showers. a shower is perhaps the greatest thing known to man. i have realized this lately. taking a shower is one of my favorite things to do. There is something almost erotic about it. you are naked, yet completely alone. no one can see you, so you don't have to worry about your nudity. it is very liberating. you have hot water running all over you. i like to take really hot showers. it relaxes my muscles so much. the hot water also hits the sensory nerves, and you end up with a heightened sense of touch. there are very few feelings that are even similar, and the only two i can think of are the feeling of a warm body next to you, and the feeling you get on Ecstacy. Combining a shower with either of these two would be sheer heaven. you have not lived until you have taken a shower on ecstacy. it is perhaps one of the most enjoyable experiences i have ever had. I can only imagine what it would be like to take a shower with someone else. right now, i don't care about real sex or any of that other stuff i have never experienced, all i want right now is a shower with someone, and my life will be complete (and no trav, i am not talking about you).

anyways, i got paid today. i hope we get that house. it would be pimp

frivved up by Ben at 5:36 PM

hmmmmm, this weekend was good, but yesterday absolutely blew. I didn't blog yesterday because it would have turned into me spewing line after line of profanities and such. I guess it is good to have a day like that to put everything into perspective. I actually needed it.

first off, thanks to manuel for letting me use your computer. you made an absolutely shitty day that much less shitty, and i thank you for it :) it was really cool to finally meet Christine, even if we did just say hi to eachother. I hope she isn't scared of us now. we kind of invaded your house, taking over all aspects of your life, from computer to phone to living room to kitchen, etc.

Anyways, before yesterday, I was having an amazing string of good luck. Everything seemed to be falling into place, between seeing Ali and the house on Sunday, to the cop that looked the other way when I ran a yellow light and caught the red light at the tail end of it. I wasn't drunk, but i wouldn't have passed a breatholizer for a minor, i am sure, and I had traces of marijuana in me. I saw the light blink red, and i was just like FUCK as the cop pulled out behind me. It wasn't really my fault. I had plenty of time to get through, there was no way I could stop, the drunk jackasses in front of me slowed down in the middle of the intersection for some reason. The cop smiled and he pulled out after me, then turned onto the freeway to chase down the drunk people. I was just like, sweet, how much better can things get. I just got caught breaking a law with enough substances in my system to get busted based on my age, yet the cop looked the other way. Maybe the Kirkland PD aren't so bad after all, even if they tried to arrest my this winter. the house we looked at was sweet. I really think it is cool, i hope we get it. I managed to meet up with the homies and fill out the paperwork in the madness that was yesterday, and it is apparently all turned in today. now, it is up to fate, and fate has been on my side. from what jay and air say, the landlord seems like a decent enough guy. I have been talking to my parents, and they are pretty supportive. they are willing to help me out a little to begin with if i need it, which is really pimp. i never expected that. and yeah, beyond that, things with Ali are going pretty good. we talk a lot, I have been helping with her chemistry and stuff, and we are going to the Mariners game on saturday. She has work, but she is trying to get it off, and she is calling in sick if she can't. it should be fun, she has never been to a baseball game. I don't know too much about baseball, but enough to get by. I have been following the mariners this year because they are just insane, so it will be fun regardless. I would enjoy myself even if she wasn't there, and having her with me will make things even better. So yeah, that is what I have planned for this saturday during the day. Hopefully some sort of buffoonery gets lined up, I have a feeling I will have a hankerin for some good old fashioned saucy goodness.

Alright, all that said, let me bring you into yesterday. This weekend, one of my co workers told me there was a bit of an emergency at one of the parks we were at, and asked me to come out and help. I said yes, i will do pretty much anything for her and the rest of my coworkers, it is just my bosses i question sometimes. so yeah, I am going to show up a little early so we can get this shit going. First off, it was pouring. driving to work is never fun in the rain, but it was absolutely pouring. then, on the west seattle bridge, some moron had rear ended a school bus, blocking 2 lanes of traffic on that side, and one on ours. So it took me a little longer to get to work. Then, at work, the emergency was this. We use this fabric stuff called jute mat (kind of a think rough mesh material) for erosion control and to hold down seeds in wetland areas when we are planting. Somehow, or boss had managed to over order by about 60 fucking rolls. It was seriously insanity. So, we had all this extra stuff, and nothing to do with it. The contractor working on the site needed to till where we were storing it, so we had to deconstruct the fence we had to store it, and load it all onto a ryder truck. So it is freaking pouring, and me and this other guy are out with wrenches taking down this fence while the other two people go pick up the truck. Then we have to load these 60 rolls of water logged cloth onto the truck. They weighed about 75-100 lbs apiece, and I am not exactly what you call built. I was really struggling by the end. My arms and back are killing me today. So this whole process took about 3 hours. Then, our boss had also over ordered at another site, so we needed to pick up these other things too. So, to get there, i have to drive over from west seattle to south-east seattle. basically, i drove to renton then up and over the hill to ranier, took a while. What we had to load were these 20 foot long "logs" made out of cocanut husk. we use them to create "natural" streams and swells in wetlands and stuff. so anyways, it was still raining, and these things were fucking soaked through. they were so wet they had shit growing out of them. They weigh about 150 lbs normally, which is no problem for 3 people. they are just unruly. anyways, they were waterlogged, so they weighed about 200-250 lbs apiece, and there were 5 of them, i think. So basically, we had to find a way to walk them to the truck, and load them in on top of all that other shit we had already loaded. it was me, this one guy, and the girl who had asked for help, so basically what i did was grab the middle and put the bulk of the weight on my shoulders so they could manuever it around. then getting into the truck, we had the one guy get in and guide it in, and me try to walk up the bumper into the bed of the truck and just shove this thing so it slides in. It was hell. After that, they sent me to another site to re-mulch part of the fucking hillside, which me and this other girl did for the rest of the day. Mondays are supposed to be an office day for me. it was kind of crazy. After that, i had to drive back to the office anyways to fill out my time sheet and drop some stuff off. I left something at Dans dorm this weekend, so i decide to pick it up while i am over. I call manuel to see if i can use his computer while i am over here. I am drenched, i am filthy, and i smell terrible, so when manuel says come by in 2 hours, i have just enough time to race home, take a shower and race back, which i do. I make it in time to catch manny luckily, and do my freaking homework and my midterm. All day Jay had been trying to track me down to fill out some paper work, but i forgot his number, so i left a few messenger messages for him to try and track me down. while i am at mannys, he shows up with this paperwork, and thus begins the search for addresses, bank account numbers and employer phones. I get it all sorted out, and I wait around at mannys for a bit in case alison calls back. I leave, and minutes after she calls mannys. of course i am on my way home. I was at UW like 3 times, and i never got a hold of her, sucksamaphones. Then when i finally called her from my house and was helping with her chem, some guy came in and started wrestling with her while i was on the phone, so i could hear like grunting and squealing in the background. eventually she managed to get away, but it was kind of strange. he is a friend apparently, but i dunno, i guess i was kind of jealous or something. I was already in a bad mood, so for some reason this made me sad on top of it. I was exhausted, sore, and for some reason this made me start questioning things. to top it off, he took over her computer and started using her messenger, so i couldn't talk to her while she did her homework. Finally, I just went to bed, in an overall bad mood.

I woke up feeling much better, and I talked to her today and feel a lot better. I don't know why i was so perturbed, it must have been the combination of events from the day culminating to that. It really shouldn't have bothered me at all. I had a pretty good day at work today. It wasn't raining, and I got to work with two of the really cool coworkers I have weeding. I hadn't seen them since thursday, so they wanted to know all about the date and the weekend and stuff. they are pretty cool, they always give me advice and stuff from the female perspective, etc, and they are big believers in my whole conservation of energy policy. basically, we all conserve our energy. we know that what we do isn't vital in the long run of things, so we take it easy and just chat. It was nice to just take it easy today. I am glad I have co workers who are so cool. there are 3 girls and 1 guy in particular who are great, i see them as the big sisters and brothers I never had. They are great to work with, and are the reason i see my job as great.

just talked to abroni, still no word on the house doh. That house would be pimp. I don't know if i have told them this, but i see trav and air as two of the coolest people i have met since college. I trust them, and think it would be sweet to live with them. Jay and i get along great after REI and highschool and all, and Blake and I have been friends since 7th grade. this group of guys is pretty much what you hope for when you look for roomates. I trust all of them, and think it would be pimp to live with them. Trav and Air don't really know Blake, but he kicks ass, and it will be awesome to hang out with him more. I am sure you guys will like him, you have met him a few times at parties. This house, if we get it, is going to kick serious ass

Well shit, blog is a little longer than i anticipated. Kudos to anyone who makes it this far

frivved up by Ben at 2:48 PM